Church planting is hard.
It is probably the hardest thing I've ever been a part of.
The thing is, no matter how often we say otherwise out loud, there is always this underlying conviction that when God calls you to do something, it's going to go well. It's going to be a success.
And there is absolutely no indication in Scripture that this is the case. God says everything will work out "to the good" of those who love Him and are called according to His purpose. But God doesn't define good the same way we do. God defines good as more holy, more Christ-like. Less selfish, less prideful, less focused on the things of this world.
God will put us through whatever fires are necessary to purify us to look more like Him. That's His "good."
And as we walk down a difficult road, I am reminded that God called me here whether I want to be here or not. My attitude needs to be graceful obedience.
And on the other side of all this, I will look more like Him.